It's a head scratching-confused head tilt-can you smell me thinking kinda moment

The P90X box came yesterday.

I assembled the curl bar, and will have my dad help me mount the wall brackets (yeah, were that serious)

I flipped through the scary DVD's (there's about 12 of them) everything from some sort of karate, to psycho yoga, aerobics, and weight training.

If you haven't seen the infomercial on the P90X it's another weight loss system out there. It is saying that SO many diets, and work outs work right away, BUT after so long our body gets used to the program we are doing. It's like you get stuck where you are.

BUT the P90X system claims to be the system that keeps your body guessing, that I won't get used to one work out plan. It will change up often.

We received a nutrition guide book, a work out book, a calendar (I need to make a copy of so Spaghetti and I each have our own) so I can mark when and what we did. I also have access to the forum online.

At first I was scared. I saw a pumped up man, talking. And lots of men. One woman, who was a H.S. athlete and just needed to get in shape.

I needed to see a short, fat, mom. Someone who had baby weight or just weight in general. And there was a video online of a success story. The woman was over 200 lbs, and is now 147.

So to me that is more then I want to lose, so it is doable. Now I just need to do it.

Now don't get me wrong. Eating healthy, and just working out is great. And it does work.

Not for us.

For us it's a mental thing. I just can. not. bring myself to stop eating crap, and doing it 10 minutes before I crash to bed around midnight either. I eat ALL the time, hungry or not, boredom is usually the key to my eating (I know, when does Feisty ever get bored?)

I know for a fact that if I cook food, no matter what, Spaghetti will eat it. He just asks that someone just make him the food, and he will do good. I think he will be good at the food part, and I will be good at working out.

And since yesterday, in my spare time of attending to children, planning Stamp Camp, and just my everyday doings, I have been reading the P90X nutrition guide. It's a book that came with our big fat P90x system.

It's serious. Like NO pop serious. And NO junk food serious (what's the point of Halloween this year?!?)

And even though Spaghetti eats grilled veggies with a side of chicken 8 days a week, I am still doing that wrong. No more oils, and probably little or no sauces too. I need to saute in sherry or wines.

The book is really cool though, it really walks you through eating, and how important it is not to "feast or famine" I am good for that. Nothing like starving all day to eat a whole pizza with a side of Taco Bell drive through, and maybe some tums to top it all off. It goes over how we should NOT go by the scale only, since we will be trading fat for lean muscle.

It tells me how often to eat, what I can have of what foods, how much, and it has me calculate my calories I am allowed too. The only bad thing is, Spaghetti and I will probably end up in two different food categories. Good because I will be feeding us to proportion, but sucky because I will have to work at both of our diets then.

I did that fat pinchie test thingy. (that came in the box too) Ouch. It hurts a little. I tested, and checked the chart, I have 23% body fat. Not bad. (thank god this test was on my tummy and not my ass!)

I think I need just a week to get the gist off the eating, and work out system. I will be keeping this blog, and I hope that Spaghetti will at least journal his eating. (I guess I could do that for him too, since I am the cook!)

I think the no pop is going to hurt him, and I think the fact that my love for coffee with an extreme amount of sugar will hurt me the most.

90 days... wish us luck!